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buzzfeed: The books that will move you, inspire you, make you...

Wed, 15 May 2013 21:52:05 -0400

The books that will move you, inspire you, make you cry, make you think, make you laugh. Are there any books that you would add?

buzzfeed: The books that will move you, inspire you, make you...

Wed, 15 May 2013 01:44:48 -0400

buzzfeed:

The books that will move you, inspire you, make you cry, make you think, make you laugh. Are there any books that you would add?

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Sun, 05 May 2013 16:09:52 -0400

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Thu, 10 Jan 2013 01:12:47 -0500

molls: I totally am in to nerdy stuff like this and will do...

Sat, 05 Jan 2013 17:53:14 -0500

molls:

I totally am in to nerdy stuff like this and will do it.

so go for it <3

Sat, 05 Jan 2013 17:49:48 -0500

so go for it <3

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Thu, 27 Dec 2012 23:37:29 -0500

worked a 12hr day to come home and search for my dog online… look up transcript info for my...

Tue, 04 Dec 2012 03:10:51 -0500

worked a 12hr day to come home and search for my dog online… look up transcript info for my law school apps… talk to my sister finally.

then she says, mom’s mammogram came back with abnormal results so she has to go in for a follow-up ultrasound tomorrow.

is this a joke?

I mean it could totally be fine but it could also be totally NOT fine.

I would pray but I feel like I’ve been shouting up prayers for weeks now and He must be sick of me asking…

God please help us find Louis safe and sound.

God please let me get a good score on the LSAT… God please let the schools I want, want me and give me application fee waivers :)

God please let me catch up on tasks at work, feeling like I’m falling behind…

God please give my boyfriend strength to grieve the loss of his grandmother.

God please give me the strength to be away from my family at Thanksgiving.

God please help me make a good impression on my boyfriend’s family; it’s their first time meeting me.

God please help me stay focused on the person I care most about. Don’t tempt me with the easy way out, being selfish and moving on.

God please give me the strength to grieve Jena and the understanding I’ll need to process the fact that at only 26 she is gone.

Also, give me the strength to attend her memorial service on my birthday. The little kid in me still says that birthdays should be happy.

God please…

there are too many people dying. probably a lot of us in need of living.

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 03:34:26 -0500

Jena.

Doreen….

If I focus on the opposite, life and living I realize that there too I find many challenges.

First of all, when the hell did I transition into the stage of adulthood in which you attend funerals on your birthday? I mean really… It might not be a stage but definitely a difficult season then. I’m not mature enough for that, I wasn’t emotionally prepared. I’m still in denial and its been a month!

Life.

I find myself in the most loving and committed relationship I’ve ever been in and yet, I’m still afraid of it?

I’m about to start applying for law schools (some out-of-state) and I’m having a hard time just being away from my family for Thanksgiving. Who am I kidding trying to live out-of-state altogether?!

In all of the challenges and questions I’ve faced lately, I’ve learned one thing: life keeps going.

Ready or not, whether you’ve processed it yet, whether you can face it yet, life will happen. It’ll carry on without you if need be and no matter what, there is always a new day.

In a time where I feel lost a lot of the time, often struggling to figure who I am supposed to be at this stage in my life I’m finding a lot of comfort in knowing that life won’t pause for me. I may as well be ready and continue to adapt because we’ll be moving on anyway.

I miss my friend and its been a tough year. Experiencing things like this has naturally put my own life into perspective and I have to say its the most challenging thing in the world. Even if for a day or two I thought entirely that I am living my life the way I should be, who’s to say that I’m not totally wrong anyway? Everyone says that you should do what you feel is good for you, what makes you happy etc… no one ever says how to determine what those things are.

Needless to say, its been a rough few months. Still learning here and I’m sure I still will be come a new season or two.

uruouru: kari-shma: (via xdesx) (via kari-shma)

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 11:15:29 -0400

uruouru:

kari-shma:

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"Do not lose hold of your dreams or aspirations. For if you do, you may still exist but you have..."

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 02:00:11 -0400

““Do not lose hold of your dreams or aspirations. For if you do, you may still exist but you have ceased to live.””

- Henry David Thoreau (via tiffanytribe)

Home.

Mon, 06 Aug 2012 01:54:41 -0400

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately and the best answer for where home is exactly is in my heart. It isn’t my physical house or even with some of the people I feel most comfortable with. It travels with the one I love, wherever he may go.

Now I’m aware this sounds crazy coming from a commitment-phobic, relationship-challenged person that I am but its the truth. I find myself in the most raw, open and honest relationship I’ve ever been in and it seems that along with it comes the understanding of all cliches. I finally understand the people who say they “just knew”. I finally can relate to the ones that say “you’ll only find it when you’re not looking”… “love isn’t logical”… you get the idea.

I happen to be in love with the most unlikely of guys. He is so different from anyone I’ve ever met that its actually scary to me how I can feel this way & have it be reciprocated.

This is the stuff of fairy tales, strictly reserved for the plot of Disney movies. Definitely not something cynical me would ever stumble into…

I’m completely vulnerable and it would be a long way down should this fail but I’ve made the leap. I want to keep making it every day to be honest. Like forever… it feels like something out of a romance novel but it isn’t, it’s just us.

I guess all I can say to all the other realists, cynics and non-believers is yes, it may seem far-fetched but if you ever feel like this could be the ‘one’ or you find yourself with someone who literally makes your world fade out of focus… pay attention and run with it. Gambling with that kind of feeling could be the best payoff you ever have in your entire life. Hold onto that person and embrace your home when you find it in someone else’s heart. It is the most insane feeling but its also the greatest one.

woodendreams: (by Jesse Estes) I want to go. Like now.

Mon, 06 Aug 2012 01:42:58 -0400

woodendreams:

(by Jesse Estes)

I want to go. Like now.

postdubstep: You’re The Music You Listen To“You are not your...

Wed, 01 Aug 2012 01:04:36 -0400

postdubstep:

You’re The Music You Listen To
“You are not your job, you’re not how much money you have in the bank. You are not the car you drive. You’re not the contents of your wallet. You are not your fucking khakis.”

wine stoppers.

Mon, 02 Jul 2012 22:52:29 -0400

yet another sign of aging.

but really, the one I bought last week is amazing! :)

today is another ‘work sucked, wash it down with wine’ kind of days and I’m being old. I’ve got my wine and I’m currently pretty consumed by paying bills/googling tantric sex. What is that by the way? No one seems to have a clear answer. Awesome.

Tonight I’m having thoughts about other confusing issues as well, like what happened to me last night.

I was driving home from the boyfriend’s house and I actually felt the need to like screw things up. Yes, really.

Who does that?! I mean women EVERYWHERE bitch & moan all day long about how wonderful things will be when they finally meet ‘the one’. What happens when after all that bitching they actually find him? Yeah, exactly. Everyone is always so focused on the big idea of love that they have absolutely no clue what to do with it once they have it. Hell, most of us won’t even realize we’ve met ‘the one’ for what seems like forever because we’re too damn jaded to accept it. We’ll sit there and listen to our friends tell us all 967 reasons this person is all wrong for us. We’ll focus on all the teeny tiny imperfections cause we’re just THAT miserable.

Now, I’m not sure if he’s the one but he does make me ridiculously happy and the issue is that the moment I realized that, I wanted to screw it up! Now there’s a therapy session waiting to happen. Actually, make that three. Seriously though… things can’t just go well? Why are we so negative? Definitely scary to think of how many of us are running around like this, we’re ‘bloody hopeless!’ as my brother-in-law would say.

I guess the point I’m trying to make is that maybe, just maybe we over think things a little. Maybe we should spend more time enjoying people/relationships/moments for what they and save all the thinking for later. Who cares if it isn’t picture perfect? Go out and enjoy it.

so deeply fabulous!! wmagazine: Photo by Inez van Lamsweerde...

Mon, 02 Jul 2012 22:20:26 -0400

so deeply fabulous!!

wmagazine:

Photo by Inez van Lamsweerde and Vinoodh Matadin

Caught in the sculpture garden!

And when he saw picasso...

Sun, 17 Jun 2012 21:55:30 -0400

He melted. I always knew that seeing art with people would force you to get to know them but not like this. Watching his reactions has been the neatest thing in the world. Finding that we connect to some of the same pieces is just the icing on the cake. Finally someone that enjoys some of my favorite things :)

I think I've met someone.

Sun, 10 Jun 2012 15:50:11 -0400

and he’s all wrong for me. Perfect.

Despite being polar opposites, a lot of good has come of us spending some quality time:

-I’ve actually watched the stars for the first time in a year

-He’s made me realize how much good I still have to do in the world

-I’ve realized that humility is something I could use in more than generous doses

-I’ve realized that even if everything went wrong, there would still be an abundance of reasons to smile and be thankful

This guy was raised so differently than I was that its actually funny to us to compare the differences. Again, polar opposites.

In the face of a problem…. ME: panic, solve. HIM: don’t worry, let things play out.

I can’t even imagine sitting still not panicking and just believing it’ll all work out. So strange.

I guess the really scary part about it all is just how quickly we’ve connected with each other. I’ve gotten closer to him in 4 days then I did in 12 dates with the last person. We’re so intense and so open…

I got chills yesterday when he grabbed my hand to hold it. Not standard.

When my relatives start asking me why I haven't found a nice boyfriend yet

Mon, 28 May 2012 23:50:55 -0400

whatshouldwecallme:

I’m like,

woodendreams: (by Tania’s Eyes)

Mon, 28 May 2012 23:48:07 -0400

woodendreams:

(by Tania’s Eyes)