except that despite a few very shitty things happening, the week has been good… sort of.
1. Friday- ended my non-relationship via alcohol-fueled argument/sob fest
2. Saturday- got stranded in the desert by some B I had incorrectly labeled as a friend
3. Sunday- nearly died during round 2 of the same outfit from Saturday (the B left me with no access to my clothes, cash etc..)
4. Monday- the hangover from the 3daydrinkfest hit me. at my desk. during my 8hr shift.
5. Tuesday- realized it was really done & started mourning the death of my non-relationship.
6. Wednesday- woke up, got ready, decided it would be a better day. walked to get my car & drive to work… no car. that shit got towed!
That’s right, all within 5 days people! My life is a joke, only the really unfunny sort.
Now I am only blogging about this whole mess because it has a happy ending. Here comes the good news… ready for it?
After spewing out all of my awful “feelings” about my non-relationship on friday, I decided to focus on the real point of Stagecoach: fun. Did it matter if he was there or not? With me or NOT? No. I focused on my friends, the party, the music & guess what? It was amazing. Duh.
Fast forward to the part where my friend was a “B” and left me with no resources at the end of the show sat night… and you find that not a minute later, one of my new friends along with a handful of sisters I had been with all day said, “well screw it, come back to our RV. no biggie”. So I did. On the way there this awesome new friend (who I truly believe is more guardian angel than real person) bought me a hot dog and talked to me like we had planned this whole thing. We woke up the next day to “my heart will go on” followed by “hoodrat hoochie mama” at 5am and just laughed & laughed. Yes I had bruises I couldn’t explain & yes, I was in yesterday’s outfit totally screwed but I decided to laugh at it. Said angel bought me coffee and breakfast… proceeded to get me set up with toiletries and I had a makeshift shower in their RV. Hit the beer bong by 11am & life was good. Got my stuff back later that day & drove home in one, amazing piece. Today my car was towed & my other guardian angel, my awesome bro in law came to get me at work at lunch and drove me to get my car. Whipped out his card & problem solved. The legacy was back & all my problems were solved.
It turns out that a lot of the time things aren’t what they appear and these let downs are really a blessing. Non-relationships despite making you feel like you’re in a relationship, are you guessed it, NOT a relationship. They’re actually bullshit ginormous wastes of time that bring up feelings and sorts of other gross things. Glad I pulled back off that ledge, phew! “Sisters/Friends”, haha well that was the joke of the year. She was neither, she was actually just an evil whore who did a REALLY screwed up thing. At least I don’t believe she’s of any use in my life now. Yet another bullet dodged. Lastly, so my car got towed? Big whoop. It wasn’t totaled or stolen, it’s back and for the low-low cost of $334. Okay so the part about it costing that much sucks but shit happens. The fact that I can now walk away with the knowledge that all of that happened & I was totally fine is such a great outcome! So I’m not in a relationship and I have some shitty friends, even some bad luck… that makes me human and real. Definitely isn’t anything that would kill me and the fact that it didn’t makes me realize that perspective is the key.
